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How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?

censorship in 'cartoon wars part II'

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fuck you.

so, yeah.

im tired of feigning optimism for the masses.

Doll Parts by Hole is currently the soundtrack to my mood. isn't courtney love deceptively fragile.

I've made several realisations over the last few weeks. And increasingly i feel as though my place in the world is increasingly pointless, but then, we all live pointless lives. I'll probably be seen as a depressed emo kid for stating that point, but fuck it. At least I feel.

I'm currently swept up in Bill Hick's view of the world, and ideas for peace and evoloution of mankind.
I'm currently suspended in that 90's-ish alt indie music movement. Pavement's 'Terror Twilight' providing enough interest and slant on a dead genre. I dare say that Neutral Milk Hotel would make me feel worse.

Everything is a constant reminder of the way things used to be, and although non-specific, a part of me longs for the way things used to be. Maybe a part of me wants to be nostalgic, its easier to be nostalgic than content.

Perhaps I've chosen to be this way.
Perhaps I've isolated myself through my choices.
Perhaps its all my fault.

People don't take enough responsibilities these days. I guess it politically incorrect to blame yourself for something. I'll take my share on the chin.

I've become everything i wanted, and yet, what i wanted wasn't happiness. Or so it seems.

"what use is economic growth when the seas are rising to engulf you?" exactly.

I want to clear my head, and my heart. The mistakes i've made this year (inclusive of the last) have like cold wind bitten me to the bone. My bones feel weak and bruised, i want desperatley to escape, but the soloution temptation provides is only temporary.

remember that band placebo, not the one that one post a greatest hits album, but the band that had integrity, yeah well one lyric cuts through the dull static within my mind.

The past will catch you up as you run faster.
(dont correct me if thats not exactly right)

there is no point in what i am saying.
and i have no idea how this might be read.
dont feel sorry for me. dont feel sympathy or empathy.
be yourself, and i will too.

and enemies
of modern music

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so just when things looked bad for me, just when i was about to give up hope, i get a call saying please attend an interview at noon on wednesday.

and so i went to the interview, and i aced it.

i know im not guaranteed the job, but hopefully i will get it.
if i get it, im not gonna go home at all, i'll stay here in portsmouth.
if i get the job, i have induction on friday, and i can start work on saturday, sunday, or monday.

they will let me know by 5pm.
im scared.

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so yeah,

since obtaining a job has become such a difficult task, and ive exhausted every possible route to getting a job, im thinking about going home for two months returning to work at tesco, where i can work 40hours a week at a good wage, moving into 33CR when Kat moves out. and returning to Portsmouth (properly) towards the end of June. By which time i will have 3 months worth of full time wages to live on. There are also a lot more jobs in portsmouth in the summer, so i'd be more productive looking for jobs then.

if anyone cares.

this is my current mixtape

01. Superman - Goldfinger
02. It Beats 4 U - My Morning Jacket
03. Major Leagues - Pavement
04. There There - Radiohead
05. Do You Feel The Same - Silverchair
06. Welcome Home (Sanitarium) - Metallica
07. Voodoo Chile (slight return) - Jimi Hendrix
08. Lagrimas De Oro - Manu Chao
09. Freedom of Choice - A Perfect Circle

on a side note im also listening to the recently leaked (new) Flaming Lips Album. On first listen it doesn't seem as good as Soft Bulletin or Yoshimi...

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if you're interested here's a song i've been working on for a while. i'm hoping it can be future Breadthings material. See what you think. Lacks drums and bass, wiht bass part being played on guitar. sorry about the timing i was playing without metranome. also two wrong notes.

ONLY first few people to click the link below will be able to download. only nice comments, criticism is not wanted since its only a very early version of the song, and is still rather incomplete.

the glow from the withered heart. (2794kb)